“Adult's Toy” is a song by Utsu-P featuring vocals by Kagamine Rin. The song was initially released on Niconico Douga, it's music video was created by ke-sanβ with illustration by Tateshina.
The song has become one of Utsu-P's staple songs. It's Utsu-P's first song to reach a million views, through an unauthorized, now deleted reupload, and has been performed live in each iteration of Utsu-P's bands performing his vocaloid songs.
Adult's Toy is 4 minutes 38 seconds long. It starts with a lead guitar build-up before launching into a heavy, thrash metal-esque sound. The song follows a standard structure up until the second pre chorus, where it interrupts another chorus repeat for a chord hang leading into a breakdown, and then into a clean refrain section. finally the last chorus of the song plays out and the song ends with the main theme section from the beginning of the song.
An instrumental version is available on Piapro
This song is featured on TRAUMATIC, however it's lacking the lead guitar intro found on other versions.
An instrumental version recorded by Soulyowork can be found on YouTube uploaded by XODUS.
A remastered version appears on Warufuzake
An electronic remix version was featured on Nibansenji and Okazu.
A remastered version appears on Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
A remastered version appears on GREATEST SHITS
Soulyowork is the first band which Utsu-P performed it live in. A video of one of their performances can be found here.
Utsu-P Band would also perform it live often.
The Ohayogozaimas occasionally performs this song live. The backing track for these performances features Kagamine Rin during the refrain section.
愛された形跡は残されてなく
滞りなく通わせた幸福もなく
残された玩具箱引っくり返して
また僕は耐え抜いて作り笑顔出す
贋物の 喘ぎ声
赤子用玩具のように牛耳られた心の傷
去り行く背中姿に絶え間なく降り注ぐ雨
息を吐くように嘘吐き
正気さえ奪う
黒く滲んだ憎悪を
解き放つ時
ほら アブナイ玩具に手を掛けて
醜い身体を打ち抜いてやれ
声にならぬ感情に身を振るわせ
腐り果てた患部ブチ抜いてやれ
僕を切り裂いた刃より
重く深く突き刺さる 言の葉で
隙間から見えたのは大人だけの世界
汚くて暑苦しいトラウマの宝庫
押入れに築いてた僕だけの世界
美しく清々しい夢と希望の国
歪まれた 脳細胞
開かれた心の隅
浮かび上がる傷口と
甦る記憶の鍵
たった一言
「いなくなれ」
太陽を気まぐれに遮り
希望を蝕む
影坊主が友達になり
永遠の闇
罪悪感ゼロ
たのしいおもちゃ
おとなのおもちゃ
いきてるおもちゃ
つかえるおもちゃ
たのしいおもちゃ
おとなのおもちゃ
いきてるおもちゃ
かなしいな―
ほら アブナイ玩具に手を掛けて
醜い記憶を打ち抜いてやれ
憎しみ尽くしてこびり付いてた
穢い垢を落とす時が来た
誰もわかっちゃくれないよ
僕にしか分からぬミリの罠
目に見えぬほどちっぽけでも
重く深く突き刺さる
言の葉で
Aisareta keiseki wa nokosaretenaku
Todokoori naku kayowaseta koufuku monaku
Nokosareta gangubako hikkuri kaeshite
Mata boku wa taenuite tsukuri egao dasu
Nisemono no aegi koe
Akagoyou gangu noyou ni yuujirareta kokoro no kizu
Sari iku senaka sugata ni taemanaku furirisosogu ame
Iki o hakuyouni uso haki
Shouki saeubau
Kuroku shinn da zouo o
Toki houttsu toki
Hora abunai ono ja ni te o kakete
Minikui kanada o uchinuite yare
Koe ni naranu kanjou ni mi o furuwase
Kusari hateta kanbu buchi nuite yare
Boku o kirisaita wa tayori
Omoku fukaku tsuki sasaru koto no wa de
Sukima kara mieta no wa otona dake no sekai
Ikanakute atsukurushii torauma no houko
Oshiirere ni kizuiteta boku dake no sekai
Utsukushiku sugasugashii yume to kibou no kuni
Yukamareta nousaibou
Hirakareta kokoro no sumi
Ukabi agaru kizuguchi to
Yonin kaeru kioku no tabi
Tatta hitokoto
“Inakunare”
Taiyou o kimagure ni saegiri
Kibou o mushibamu
Kagebouzu ga tomodachi ninari
Eien no yami
Zaiakukan zero
Tanoshii omocha
Otona no omocha
Ikiteru omocha
Tsukaeru omocha
Tanoshii omocha
Otona no omocha
Ikiteru omocha
Kanashii na
Hora abunai ono ja ni te o kakete
Minikui kioku o uchinuiteyare
Nikushimi zukushite kobiritsuiteta
Hikanai aka o otosu toki ga kita
Daremo wakaccha kurenai yo
Boku nishika wakaranu miri no wana
Meni mienu hodo chippoke demo
Omoku fukaku tsukisasaru
Koto no ha de
All traces of me being loved have been left behind
No happiness circulates within me
I've knocked over the remaining toy boxes
I stick it out until the end, wearing a fake smile
The imitative heavy breathing
The mental trauma inflicted on me after being used like a child's toy
Like rain that pours incessantly as he turns his back and walks away
Spitting lies under your breath
Sanity taken by force
Blackened and welled up with hatred
It's time for release
Hey, I got my hand on a dangerous toy
I'll use it to punch a hole through this hideous body
I can't help but feel emotion shaking in my voice
Cut out the infected parts
and yet the words have pierced me deeper
than the knife ever did
What I saw through the cracks was a world for adults only
A dirty, sweltering repository of trauma
My world is built within a closet
that is my beautiful, fresh country of hopes and dreams
A warped state of mind
In the opened recesses of my heart,
The cuts that emerge and
the key to bringing back my memories
are just the words
「I want you to disappear」
It blocks the sun on a whim
Wishes being eaten by worms
The boy of shadows becomes my friend
An eternity of darkness
With no feelings of guilt
Fun toy
Adult's toy
Living toy
Useful toy
Fun toy
Adult's toy
Living toy
It's so sad
Hey, I got my hand on a dangerous toy
I'll knock these ugly memories out
And all this hatred stuck with me
The time has come to get rid of this filth
Nobody will ever understand
This millimeter wide trap that only I know
Because even if it's so small that it's invisible,
It's piercing me so deeply and critically
Those words